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Sleepless in Germany

I can not sleep. I am bloody awake at four thirty in the morning. I wish I was so awake during the day. It is such a waste of time because I can not do serious work at this time of the night. So I am hanging around in front of the TV – lousy program at this time of the night – and on the web.

I came back from central US time ten days ago, and should really have gotten over jetlag by now. But I haven’t, my body seems to be unwilling to readjust to German time. Melatonin has suddenly lost it’s magic, the only thing that makes me sleep eventually is my iPod, with the audiobooks on it. It is a bit like my mother reading stories to me when I was a child, very soothing. But still, I hate to be up so late because I know that tomorrow will not start before 11a.m. and  I will be a tired and grouchy human being. I hate myself in that mood.

 Oh well… I better go now and listen to my electronic nanny…

 Good night everyone!



Turning 40, Job interviews and the small stuff

I turned 40 two days ago (8/8)….  I don’t know why people say its horrible….  that it makes them old… I think its really just a state of mind…. If a number makes you old…. Then its your mind telling you its true….  I’m doing things at 40 that I would never have believed I would be doing at 20! 

Job Interviews, can’t live with them, can’t live without them…..  Had a second interview with a hotel, in Baden-Baden Germany. 

Still was nervous. Still worried I was going to look dumb…..  Didn’t feel that way after the interview that went well!  World, keep your fingers crossed for me getting this job!  It would be wonderful to have!

Small stuff…. Wash service losing for a week my chefs whites and one pair of my pants… Finally resurfaced today…..  Thank God for that…..  Rain, too much, too fast…. The Oos looked like you would have fun on it white water rafting, However I think the police might mind you Kyacking or something down it through the city…  Fall temperatures in August…. Not necessarily a problem, if you didn’t worry about what kind of temperatures you were going to end up with in october!


You know its going to be a bad couple of days when

This is a post by SAER: 

 1) Less than a half hour into work you cut your finger.  Bad enough to go to the doctors/emergency room.  On a friday afternoon, after every office is closed. (I´m a chef, ouch, sharp knives). Leave the emergency room over an hour and a half later, with big white bandage and a doctors note for the weekend off.

2) Salary is not in the account.  Direct Deposit never shows up on the weekend.  BLECH.  Monday before one is financially solvent. Growl….  pain in the ass…..

3) Weekend. Usually incredibly enjoyable is interrupted by the fact that you have an abcess come up in your gum. Tear producing pain. Emergency trip to the dentist.  Emergency dentist as normal dentists are closed on the weekends.  Have to go back a second time and am on antibiotics for the infection. (Dental phobic here…. But pain much worse than the fear.)

What gets me through this…. My partner… Priceless…..


A quote on Computers and stuff on Technology

It should be for all technology… it sort of fits!

 Computers are like Old Testament gods; lots of rules and no mercy.
Joseph Campbell

Just remember…. just because it says its a USB port doesn;t mean its like YOUR USB port, nor does electricity come in the smae voltage in all countries….

When Is the US going to learn that the metric system is a lot easier on the brain and the wallet….  Not to metion that having a standard like everyone else is a lot easier to explain when you  mess it up!


Quote(s) of the Day

Just a virtual hug against worries and the world…..

When you make a mistake, don’t look back at it long. Take the reason of the thing into your mind and then look forward. Mistakes are lessons of wisdom. The past cannot be changed. The future is yet in your power.
Hugh White (1773 – 1840)  He was the US Senate Pro Tem in 1840, and a politician.  I just liked this quote.


If you have made mistakes, even serious ones, there is always another chance for you. What we call failure is not the falling down but the staying down.
Mary Pickford (1893 – 1979)  She was “America’s Sweetheart” in the days of silent films.  A famous actress, she saw talking films start but never made the transition to the “talkies”.  Her eyes and her body did all the talking in her silent films.  And she divorced, when it was just not done.

Coffee, anyone?

I just experience the joys of a good espresso machine.  I mean one of these big, fancy machines from Saeco, Jura and the like. Those machines who cost you half your monthly salary, but look cool and make great coffee.  The best is the freshly ground beans! I used to drink coffee with lots of milk to cover the taste, but now I am drinking it black and loving it!

I want one of those!


when your decisions come back to bite you in the butt

Did you ever feel like you made an irrevocable decision you are no longer sure about? Well, I did today…  I worked in the university system for about eight years, but two years ago I decided to leave the university because my career did not go anywhere, and I did not see a chance that it ever would. I became a school teacher, and I have been quite happy with the new life and never regretted the change.  Until recently, actually. I am currently visiting a friend who is a professor at a prestigious American university, so I have been talking to a lot of scholars and researchers. And suddenly, I am questioning my decision to leave again. Although I know that it was the right decision if I ever want to have a stable job and make money above the poverty line, which I do.  But I feel that I nearly envy my friend her lifestyle, her opportunities that being a university professor presents, and the intellectual stimulation that she gets. My life in contrast seems pretty dull.  And I am wondering if it was really the right decision that I made back then, two years ago.

 Did any of you ever experience something similar? How did you get over it? Did you get over it?

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